I'm exhausted.

I need to sleep.

AP English III is the worst.
Never take it.
Research paper is kickin me in the butt!

Maybe tomorrow i'll have some down time to paint and take some pictures.
Let's hope!

I can't stop listening to Dashboard's new album, Alter The Ending.

I can't stop thinking about you.

And you know who you are.

<3

I've made a lot of mistakes

Today it rained, and it poured.
Today I ran to my car in pouring, freezing rain with no shoes on and my jeans rolled past my knees.
Today I was so incredibly happy.
I wish I could stay that way..

It's blurry, but hey- I was driving.

So, no one reads this.
I've recently got a little feedback about it, but I can bet you it's people I hardly know and the people I actually ask to read this probably never have and never will.
So it's time for this to be my public diary.

I miss a lot of things.
I miss my brothers the most.
My brother, Travis, was probably one of my best friends about three months ago. Now, I don't know who he is. All I know about my brother is that he has so many better things to do in his life than dare answer a text or call from his parents or little sister. I'm never going to be good enough because I live my life for Christ and I don't make stupid mistakes.
My brother, Matt, has lived in Oklahoma for four years now. Though the circumstances we were in as kids, we never got close. And we still aren't. It kills me that my mom will tell me, "Go spend the night with your brother", and I can look at her and say honestly, "He doesn't want me there." I can't keep a conversation with him for more than 15 minutes. He's exactly like my dad and I promise you he will never admit it. Him and Travis both are.

So now, i'll go another night wondering who the heck my blood related, once best friend, two older brothers are. God knows. All I know is I miss the heck out of them.

Goodnight, moon.

Listening to the ablum On A Wire by The Get Up Kids makes me cry.

Well I could have been a famous singer

If I had someone else's voice.
But failures always sounded better.

It's a nice day outside.
Please, let it rain down.
Lord, reign your glory onto me.

I'm trapped..

A-Punk by Vampire Weekend.

And it's still raining...

They say it's getting colder this week.
I wish it wouldn't..

And though the lights are blown,

I still see.

Do you ever wish you could just jump to another place, another time?
I want my future, now.
I want it with you.
And I want it to be great..

By the way, I got that camera from the antique shop.

Getting film soon to test it out.

Let's hope it works :)

Listen to Such Small Hands by La Dispute.

and put www.rainymood.com in the background..

Oh how I miss you

These days,
they're long.

This distance,
it's neverending.

This feelings.
they'll never fade.



www.RainyMood.com
What have I been doing for the past 24 hours?
Listening to fake rain.

Are you in love?

Probably.


Wanna dream with me for a little bit before I go to sleep?

Imagine, a year and a half from now, so around summer of 2011, after we've graduated.
In a little wooden boat, finger painted in the brightest, happiest colors you can imagine, looks like a four year old did it.
Right outside of a little island that for some reason that will never be known, we discovered.
And we have a little fort set up out of the trees and surroundings.
Every day it's about 75 - 80 degrees and light breeze.
And all day, every day, we take the most beautiful pictures the world has ever seen, paint the most extravigant paintings to this day, sing in harmonies no one knew existed, and fall in love more and more every day.
And never come back.

Will you come along?

If only you could see the face in front of me..

Yesterday was Title Fight and Four Year Strong.

We were late and didn't get to go.

But we drove around Dallas anyway; Shelly, Cj, Taylor, and I.

I couldn't tell you who took these pictures, either me or Taylor.

Dallas is so pretty at night..

Listen to the Styrofoam remix of "Drugs or Me" by Jimmy Eat World on road trips or if you just need something to think about.

I suck.

I love to paint, draw, take pictures, sew, sing, and make music.
But I suck at every one of those things.
Yet, I love how much I suck at them.

I had a hard day.
and I am a jealous person sometimes.
So today I played "indirect pay-back"
And I don't think anyone noticed.

So once again, it's time to give up and go to bed.

But this evening Shelly and I drove all over to blow off some anger.
It felt great.

I'm not sorry I met you,

I'm not sorry it's over,

I'm not sorry,

theres nothing to say.

Get me right

Today I had a doctors appointment so afterwards my mom and I spent the day together!
We got our hair cut, got breakfast, and sorted some jewelery.
I found some things my grandma gave me a while back, and these were part of that collection.

Can I live in the 50's, please?

Oh, great all-knowing tree,

What time do you say now?

Will you ever tell?

Well every day you lose more color

Do you think that someone paints your mirror?

I can't hide it.

I can't keep a straight face.

I can't remember to get dressed.

There are visions much clearer than these blurs that you see..

I'm sinking like a stone in the sea and burning like a bridge for your body...

Today, Maggie had work at 8 so she picked Matt up from Coppell and I got him from Benny's at 9:30 ish, and we painted more. Maggie came over after work, and Colton after church.
We painted two tables that were in my garage, a picture frame, and a mirror.
The mirror's story is, Haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh by Bright Eyes.

"You combed your hair inside that mirror, the one you painted blue and glued with jewlery tears. Something about the bright colors always made you feel better"

Then I took Matt back to Coppell and went to Flowermound and went to the Melton's. Cj and I went for a bike and listened to music for about two hours. I came home with a lot of clothes. :)

This is a good weekend. Juss sayin..


Those are the two tables we painted. Give us furniture, and we will paint them.

Everything will change...

Today I went to Old Town Keller with Maggie Harnisch and we went to old antique shops, where I found a polaroid camera, and we went to a few pawn shops.
We went and got Matt French and went to Dallas, shopping at Buffalo Exchange and North Park.
Then we painted what turned out to be a very expensive box from WW2, thinking it was just a random box in Matt's room. Oops.
Today ruled.

Listening to The Postal Service helps me sleep at night when I'm feeling scared or lonely. Give it a try.

Todays one of those days

when you just feel so inspired.
Today, so many things inspired me.

I got a fortune that read,

"The rainbow's treasures will soon belong to you."

I went shopping with my mom at anthropologie. I don't know what it is about that store, but it makes me want to create things, decorate, sew, paint, anything.
So today I did just that. I have an idea for Sunday probably, I need to get the iron out for it though. Also, I have some furniture that Matt French and I are going to paint all pretty. I'm going pawn shopping tomorrow with Maggie and Matt and I might find some things there to paint, too. But today I started sketching something, and I ended up painting it on canvas. So, here's the finished project! I'm giving it to Cj.

I'm not sure if I'm super proud of it, but it kept me busy today. :) Going to be painting a lot more now. I finally got good paint and brushes, and lots of canvases.

So many ideas are rushing through my head.

Listen to "Yelle". Mmm I don't speak french, but it's so great.

He loves us

I'm struggling, a lot.

I need Jesus Christ's hand to guide me.

and this song helps me so much.

Listen to He Loves Us by John Mark McMillan.

I went for a walk today with Shelly Morris,

took some pictures.

This place scares me so much, but I love it.

www.flikr.com/photos/tessalpierce

Check me out.

Always makes me smile

Smiling
Spinning round and round
Holding hands
The whole world a blur
But you are standing

Soaked
Completely drenched
No rubber boots
Running inside us
Want to erupt from a shell

The Wind
An outdoor smell of your hair
I breathe as hard as I can
with my nose

Jump into puddles
With no boots on
completely drenched
With no boots on

And I get a nosebleed
but I always stand up