Today I ran to my car in pouring, freezing rain with no shoes on and my jeans rolled past my knees.
Today I was so incredibly happy.
I wish I could stay that way..
It's blurry, but hey- I was driving.
So, no one reads this.
I've recently got a little feedback about it, but I can bet you it's people I hardly know and the people I actually ask to read this probably never have and never will.
So it's time for this to be my public diary.
I miss a lot of things.
I miss my brothers the most.
My brother, Travis, was probably one of my best friends about three months ago. Now, I don't know who he is. All I know about my brother is that he has so many better things to do in his life than dare answer a text or call from his parents or little sister. I'm never going to be good enough because I live my life for Christ and I don't make stupid mistakes.
My brother, Matt, has lived in Oklahoma for four years now. Though the circumstances we were in as kids, we never got close. And we still aren't. It kills me that my mom will tell me, "Go spend the night with your brother", and I can look at her and say honestly, "He doesn't want me there." I can't keep a conversation with him for more than 15 minutes. He's exactly like my dad and I promise you he will never admit it. Him and Travis both are.
So now, i'll go another night wondering who the heck my blood related, once best friend, two older brothers are. God knows. All I know is I miss the heck out of them.
Goodnight, moon.
Listening to the ablum On A Wire by The Get Up Kids makes me cry.
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